I have been reconnecting with my anger, with my rage. And if you are the one who experienced it recently, please know that you are not the only one. Not the first and I have a feeling not the last one too. I have contained it for so long, and now I cannot do it any longer. Even if I try very hard, to suppress it - especially when in the most inappropriate situations, I simply physically cannot. It's like a vulcano, it burns my chest literally with so much fire. And in situations where I do not have sufficient time and space to self regulate, to burn it out, to stump my feet and punch the air, it gets expressed. Very often, not in a nice or kind way. Even if I try to be kind. And especially if I try, if you know what I mean. With those that I like a lot but don't know very well, my victim side comes out in an awkward way too. The rage is not pure, it goes through this lens of softening it up, and probably making it worse as a result. Sometimes I express it and only then clarity comes as to how I contributed to this whole situation. And then guilt and shame and personal harakiri creep in. This whole cocktail of emotions. I know that I might lose a few friends along the way, because this whole thing can be unexpected and shocking to say the least. But I know that this is the necessary stage in my life, until I learn how to express it in a healthy way as it arises and about what leads to it, which is usually miscommunication or me not informing well, or not being informed well too - hello Human Design Manifestor strategy and authority. And it feels so much more authentic and alive too. And that feels good, no matter what happens afterwards. There is so much LIFE FORCE that gets freed up. LIFE FORCE that is the frequency transmitted to others as love and peace and joy. LIFE FORCE that was buried in an attempt to be nice and convenient. Do you express your anger? Do you find it easy? In an upcoming TEA COURSE we will learn why working with our Shadow is incredibly important in the life of Tea. And how working with the shadow helps you in your tea practice, and how your tea practice helps you with being with your shadow.