Honestly...five years ago I thought I was going to kill myself after ending a lot of relationships in my life and with that, a lot people ending their relationship with me too. I lost my housing, sold everything I owned (including my camera equipment), continued my unhealthy relationship with drugs and alcohol and left the city I grew up in completely penniless. That time in my life can still feel brutally painful (shameful) but sometimes I find myself laughing about it. I say *laugh* because of the absolute absurdity it took to get myself to learn to let go of what’s not meant for me and to actually start an honest journey to find out who I really am. I was 30 years old then and I’m still growing! 🌱✨ I promise you, it’s not worth killing yourself because of any situation or anyone no matter how impossibly dark and hopeless it may feel. #suicidepreventionmonth ❤️ I’d like to personally thank @ao.dailyritual for helping me process a lot this pain and shame which reflected in deep rooted patterns within myself. To view it, to acknowledge it, and leave to it behind in the river 🪞🪞🪞