#Repost @shantaniabeckford with @make_repost ・・・ We all deserve peace , balance love and happiness. ✨❤️ I am really happy that therapy is positively reinforced to the black community because I am one of them people who was too stubborn scared n untrusting to go. But I DID IT🖤✨ Thanks to my peeps for encouraging me even though I'm quite stubborn at times. 🥺 Stylist + photographer @mariamufundistylist For those who wanna read a book!! 🔻🔻🔻🔻🔻🔻🔻🔻🔻 " A back story ..... I had anger management sessions in school for busting some boys nose for constantly lifting up my dress. It's the 2nd time this exact incident happened. The first time was in Jamaica n " I "got beat/punished Infront of the whole school and had to wash off his bloody nose at the pipe whilst he was crying euhhhh... it was a lot .. So you could only imagine in the U.K. how horrified they all were seeing all that blood, him crying n me in a rage. It was either counselling or get expelled. So Yh I got in trouble 🥺 You see the bullshit 😡 I get punished for defending myself n having heavy hands. 😫 I felt like I must be a shit person to need counselling since I'm getting punished. 🤔 we come from a place where stuff like that wasn't even a thing. Don't really talk about stuff bothering you without getting shut down, made to feel bad or met with ignorance. Much less have the knowledge for even my own momma to fully explain it to me, bless her man. So I ended up finding more clever ways to get back at pple who messed with me in school n in life whilst keeping my mouth shut . anything to make sure I don't go back into therapy again or to be made to be seen like a crazy person. Cuz to me, what you do in self defense is more punished then the actual crime itself. Your meant to turn the other cheek always n be gracious n smile. Or be vulnerable in ur delivery to be believed. 🤣👍🏾 take shit and say nuin like good lil girls do. 🤣 that's never been me 💪🏾 so I have to break through the stigma, mad traumas, get some courage just to do a simple thing like ask for help to improve my life. I hope it all works out. ✨ ☺️❤️ just wanna be the best Shan I can be.