This is sad! This is really sad!! Resident burn out is real...@juctangster we empathize with you❤️ Less than 24 hours after our last picture together, my love, Jing Mai, took her own life For the last 2+ months Jing has been struggling with anxiety, inability to sleep, and feeling inadequate as a first year resident physician. Despite all the therapy, medications and affection from families and friends, she ultimately chose what took her pain away Jing Mai... You REDEFINED what love is to me. Finding a partner who was not only hilarious, highly energized, motivated, emotionally loving, but also drop dead gorgeous, super smart and can climb rocks better than I could??? I didn’t believe in all those cheesy romance movies until I had MY love at first sight I haven’t been able to sleep well since you left. Every time I wake up, I think about the pain and suffering you endured and it just breaks me. It took huge courage to do what you did. While it is difficult to look at our old photos and videos, someone as amazing as you needs to be shared with the world #1) the last picture of us together. Depression can be hidden so well #2) our first sunset photo. Still got my old glasses before Jing bumped my eyewear game. 4/17/2022 #3) dancing always brought a smile to your face #4) one of many delicious dinners we made together #5) water buffalo ice cream was such a treat after hiking your favorite trail in the bay. I’m going to hike the whole trail one day for you baby #6) Nancy and Sol’s wedding. The last time I got to hold your hands, bring your head close and dance to the rhythm of Jing #7) an unpublished pulot taste test. I will continue our hunt for the best mushrooms and pulots #8) Jing’s depression #9) hammocks and sunsets are a beautiful thing #10) my last sunset with the love of my life 8/27/2022. I’ll cherish this hilltop forever ❤️ . . . A part of me still believes that this is a cruel joke. Please come back to me baby. I can’t wait to hold you in my arms again. If not, if you somehow read this message in whatever universe, dimension, timeline or afterlife you’re in, I want you to know you were loved I miss you my little oatmeal