Tis Leo season, the last full month of summer, my birth month. I don't always recognize my emotions or allow myself to simply be okay with it, so it's earth shattering to me when I do recognize and allow. I am going through a depression episode due to my disorder and illnesses, not due to life stress, hormones, money, etc. but due to mental illness. I have just got accepted to another job with a higher pay from my last still in the education field, I have long time friends that have came back from out of state , and I've even gone through an intense needed spiritual and life transformations regarding my reality, my values, and endgame goals in life. All fantastic things, right? Yet, I'm filled with emptiness and worry, struggling with feeling that I will never feel "complete" despite all that is going on positively. Mental illness truly is scary. Thankfully, I know deep down that I am happy and content in my life, full of gratitude for all that's happened and is. Every day is a battle with my brain, some days worse than others. I want people to know that you can be extremely grateful and recognize the beauty of life and its gifts, be successful and what not and still struggle with mental health. This might be more of a reassurance for me, but for whoever who needs this too. 🖤 I am grateful for my life and body.