normalize sending me large sums of money <3 the way folks view sex work as a less dignified profession is absolutely disgusting, especially when you combine it with colorism, transphobia, and fatphobia. the folks I see constantly uplifted on these platforms are skinny white people. skinny white sex workers, because sex work coming from a white person is typically seen as a “beautiful art form” but that same grace is never extended to darkskin, disabled, and/or fat sex workers. the way instagram operates we all know is extremely evil and I am so tired of being hurt by this algorithm. I could care less about social media but this is my livelihood and when I’m getting shadowbanned every other week, it starts to get really disheartening. sex work is my job and it’s the only one I have at that! sex work has helped me truly embrace myself more and feel like I actually have power over my body and how I use my body to make money without hurting myself physically or mentally. I have struggled with chronic pain my entire life, there is no moment where I am not in pain. I am also autistic and have severe ADHD. I am not built to work or last in a 9-5 environment, environments like those have left me completely depleted and suicidal. I never want to go back to working a job that makes me feel worthless. this is the first time in my life where I feel like I’m actually in control. I don’t like feeling powerless and waiting for somebody to come and save me. don’t get me wrong though, lack of community support right now is really fucking me up. I have to remind myself that I am not able-bodied & neurotypical so I require so much more support than others and I should never feel bad about that. but I do sometimes. not many people know the intersections of my identity or care to understand it. I don’t want pity, I just want compassion. I am tired of being my own biggest advocate. I really need y’all to start showing up for disabled folks like me. on that note, please support my sex work. you can follow my twitter @ scorpiondyke. you can tip me at $paydyke and on venmo: aisha-guled. engaging with my content on here helps tremendously as well! sincerely, a very exhausted river 🦋