Chore by me for @composedthestudio program show 🥹🧚🏾‍♂️✨ (TW: caption mentions depression and suicide) This song 🥲🥲 is so many things to me, it’s how it feels to live with depression and anxiety, how it feels to fall in love with depression and being suicidal, and how 5 years later from when I was at my worst, I still carried and lived in wondering if it’d be better if I wasn’t here. I’ve worked so hard to heal myself and I’ve come so far but I haven’t had the support I’ve needed for a long time. I’ve felt so helpless. When I was asked to create a solo I knew I wanted to create something I was proud of, I wanted to create something that said how I feeling and not having to tone it down because I was worried about being a burden or if it’d be too much. To be able to sit in my darkness and it be okay, because it’s never felt okay to feel the depths of my trauma, it’s never felt safe and it’s so scary. I remember every time I rehearsed in front of the group it was so silent, but I knew everyone was listening, and understood. And it meant so much to me To be seen And more importantly To be felt... 🥲🥲🥲 This is the first choreography I’ve shared and performed and posted, every step of this has fulfilled me, creating is what I’ll do for the rest of my life. Ty @billieeilish for making music that kept me here ❤️ Song: Listen before I go by @billieeilish Outfit styled by me