Historically, I am a heavy bleeder. I have bled my emotions all over the people around me hoping that if I bled enough, they would have no other choice but to come to the rescue and patch me up. Agency and sovereignty over my energy and emotions does not come naturally to me. I didn’t grow up in a household that demonstrated those things growing up. In fact, it was quite the opposite. But as the saying goes, “it’s not always your fault, but it is always your responsibility.” And this is one of the hardest responsibilities I’ve had to own over the years. And I’ve had to work extremely hard, every day to practice. I’ve had to own that my emotions are mine alone. My happiness is mine to cultivate. My jealousy is mine to surrender to. My fear is mine to dance with. And although I always have the best intentions of standing firmly on my own, sometimes I still bleed. Today I am giving grace to the girl that has come so far yet has so far left to go. I am giving grace for the moments where I can tap into my power and bring my feet back to the ground. And... I am giving grace to the moments when none of that happens and I am whirling, swirling tornado of chaos. I don’t call myself an Ownership Coach because I have mastered owning my shit. I call myself an Ownership Coach because I practice my craft every moment of every day. That is what makes me a great coach, not a perfect one. Sometimes I hit the mark and a lot of times, I don’t even come close. But no matter what, I pick myself up and I keep going, a litter wiser each time. I honor all the versions of me that show up in different situations for different reasons. I get curious about who all those versions are and what they might need to express. And I stand completely in love with every single one of them - the good, the bad, and the bloody. If you are a fellow bleeder, I see you and I stand with you. It’s not an easy task to patch yourself up all the time. But the more we learn that we do in fact have the ability to control the bleeding, the more empowered we become. The more free we become. And oh, how badly do the people of this world deserve to be free.