Holga’s death coincided with my leg-iversary so I didn’t mention anything then. But now that some time has passed, I want to wish a happy birthday to my poor legs with a strange BTS video from Excellences & Perfections I found by digging in my gmail account. This piece had been developed way before the accident happened and in a way I was pushing myself into recovery by accomplishing everything I had planned in the months before the crash. Was it a good idea? No, not really, I was only able to survive 2014 by taking all the oxycodone my doctors prescribed. One of the things I resent the most up to this day, was people’s impatience. I had been selected to design a stage for the Serpentine Gallery Marathon which took place only a few days after I got hospitalized. I was only 24, this was a big deal for me. I had been working on this piece for months. I had all the materials in London and the idea was for me to be there in person making this installation/ collage for 1 or 2 weeks. Instead they got someone else to put these materials together while I was in a hospital bed coming in and out of consciousness. I remember waking up from the haze to a text of a photo of Gilbert and George speaking in front of this monster that was supposed to be my artwork then curling up and crying. I wish someone had said to me “we will get someone else to do the stage this year, take your time, heal, do it next year”. What’s the rush? But disabilities take time and time is money. Capitalism doesn’t like that and I’ve always refused to transform my disability into an easily consumable image. I REFUSE. My injuries are NOT my personality, (I was already special before the accident!) fuck all of you who monetize on making disabilities easily digestible for the system instead of teaching people about empathy and making real change. All my love to those who endure pain 24/7 and/or have physical disadvantages while refusing to be labeled in a way that makes it easier museums to tick a box <3 (And of course to the very few who are understanding, caring and not predatory: thank you❤️) 1. Rare E&P BTS 2. October 9th 2013 3. @elplanetafilm @carmenrocaigual giving me a hand with the cane/chair