5 months of ketamine therapy! The first time I came in, I was a nervous wreck. The doctor talked through worst case scenarios with me (what if my heart stops beating! what if i have an allergic reaction! what if my body rejects the medicine!) and briefed me through the whole procedure. Each time I went in every 4-6 weeks for another session, I got more and more comfortable. This week, I plopped right down into the chair, placed my arm out for the IV, and pulled my blanket over like I was prepping for a nap. We really do get better at anything we practice 🤠 If depression shows up as fear, self doubt, and rumination, this therapy has helped me tap into fearlessness, self acceptance, and clarity. I talk to myself through the whole session & share words of wisdom with myself 🥹 I’ve experienced depression since I was a kid so sometimes it gets frustrating...no matter how much of my life I change, it feels defeating whenever my symptoms come back. I often get stuck on the idea that I’d be so much further along (in career, creative practice, relationships) if I wasn’t chronically depressed. But I’m very very very proud of myself for prioritizing my healing & resting as much as I need, moving at my own pace. Progress one little snail stroll at a time 🐌 As a boundary, pls do not message me questions about ketamine therapy unless we are on texting basis! Lots of people have reached out and it gets overwhelming for me to try to answer everyone. I’ll share details as I’m ready 💓