❗️TW mental health ❗️ 6 years ago today was the last time i tried to end my life after a series of attempts throughout middle & high school. usually i don’t post stuff pertaining to my mental health, it’s much easier to share the wins and the things in life that are so-called palatable but i wanted to come on here to publicly say that i AM proud of myself and im so glad i stuck around, at first for others and eventually for me too. when i was at my worst and was told that “things get better” i never really absorbed it because i couldn’t imagine the future for myself because i did not want to be in it. but things did get better, and then they got worse again and then better again and worse again and better and so on. the main thing is that each time life got better it was sweeter than the last time, and when it was worse, the hurt was less. i learned that the pockets of joy are just as inevitable as the pockets of pain & numb, and after a while it’s easier not to fixate on the lows because something is always around the corner for you. anyway, savor this experience as it is unique and harsh and beautiful, be present, and even when things can’t get any more painful, know that it will end. to the people who have helped me throughout this journey you have no idea what a difference you truly made, i know it wasn’t always easy. love you. anyway here are some pics of joy over the years! also had to post this again bc insta glitched and had the same pic repeated!!