Thank you @sezane @and.repeat for having me be part of such and important conversation about disability and mental health. During the panel a question was asked about how we deal with airports and judgement. If anyone has heard me speak you know I'm full of stories and facts. At one point when speaking of the frustration of how society treats me as a disabled person I said "I live with the risk of death every single day." I had to pause because I felt the tears forming. I know I can literally die at any moment due to my coronary artery spasms but sometimes I FEEL it. I feel sadness. I feel frustrated. I feel determined. I feel like every moment is my last. I feel accomplished. I feel like life is unfair. And I feel like I'm my true authentic self; a mix of real and raw emotions. I haven't felt that feeling in a while because I don't like to. I like to protect myself as much as possible from the reality of my day-to-day; death. Through my shaky voice I got through what I had to say. But I will tell you this if you do not live with disability and/or chronic illness you have a privilege that I will never have again. See us. Advocate for us. Support us. Although it may sound sad or depressing to you it is a very reason why I live my life to the fullest and how I keep being amazing! BRB as it been a tough week with health stuff and I gotta prove to insurance I'm in enough pain for life changing back injections scheduled for tomorrow 🙃 #changecadet Image Description: Dr. Cadet stands in front of a pink wall that says LA Mon Amour (she also knows some French so that means LA my love). She wears a beautiful Sézane patchwork dress full of white, reds, blues and greens. A red belt with a gold buckle snatches her waist with long golden braids drapped to one side. Her face is solemn and serving.