“God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference” This prayer was given to me at the darkest time in my life, just 2 years ago. The first time I ever felt depression. It crept up on me slowly turning me into a shell of who I thought I was and it lasted months. The first 30 minutes of my day was filled with the most negative thoughts I’ve ever had, it didn’t even sound like it was me talking.. I would show up to work on camera smiling, making jokes and as soon as I was done it’s like all my energy left my body. I didn’t know what was going on until one day I pulled up to the store and was paralyzed in my seat and just started crying. For a man who rarely ever felt the emotion of sadness due to a hardened childhood; to break down in his car outside of Walmart for no reason in particular..I knew it was time for me to get help because I couldn’t conquer this demon on my own. I’ve always thought to myself to be self aware.. Until I went to therapy and realized I barely even know who I am. I only knew who I wanted to believe I was. We carry different versions of ourselves from childhood, teenage years, young adults, decades of transformations & when certain life events trigger you, you’re not responding with the person you are today-sometimes it’s a different version of you from your past that was never healed which is why it’s hard for so many of us to remain neutral. Instead we are reactive and respond emotionally not logically. I honestly cannot remember how I pulled myself out of it, I think it was due to just in the work on myself. Exercise, nutrition, therapy, and it seemed to just go away. One thing I now do DAILY is write down my goals. This helps remind myself of the man I want to be and my actions & thoughts need to lead me towards that. ⭐️MY OCTOBER IN REVIEW(TOP 4 HIGHLIGHTS)⭐️ ⭐️Celebrated my 30th birthday ⭐️Went on my first trip in over 2 years ⭐️Took the kids trick or treating ⭐️Our business got featured in Yahoo & Business insider