I am now practically at midpoint of life if I don’t die tomorrow and it’s always good to reflect on life. If im very lucky I will have 40 more years. Most ppl have been through a lot of ups and downs in life including me but emotionally and mentally everything that has nearly broke me has made me stronger 100%. Nothing broke me or affected me more than my dads death but I shared my feelings at that time with you all and many of you helped me through it without even realising. I dealt with that by drowning myself in work day in day out. Kept myself occupied with my kids. Cried at night when everyone was sleeping or when I was on my own. Pulled myself together daily by pretending to be ok, putting a brave smiley face on for the kids and social media I managed to deal with that excruciating pain I was feeling. The thing is some ppl can fight it. That horrible sinking feeling. There are two options in my opinion that we have. You keep sinking hitting rock bottom which is a lot harder to get out from or you swim. You swim as hard as you can and you get to the surface and you breathe! There is no knowing which way you will go when that big thing hits you or a lot of little things in quick succession come your way that you simply can’t cope with. You may think you are the strongest person in the world but I know strong people who fall into darkness. We may think we will never fall into that darkness but one horrible incident can change everything and cripple the strongest of us. But as the saying goes and I truly believe it. What doesn’t kill us or break us will make us stronger. Always tell yourself I will get through this coz you will. Have faith and do whatever you can to get out of it. Help yourself by seeking help from those around you who can give you the support you need. Lots and lots of love for you all.