This is seven years cancer free. Yes I’m “fine” but what does being fine mean? It means compromises, learning to get to know my body again, accepting it on its own terms. At times it has meant pretending everything is OK, erasing what happened, and at others wishing I could be my authentic self 😵‍💫 To survive ovarian cancer is supposed to mean that you rise like a phoenix from the ashes ✨ , but it’s so much more complex than that. Some think they want to know the nuances, but they rarely do. Most prefer the narrative that everything is OK as they are projecting onto you their own denial of mortality. So I’m here to disrupt that 🪩 Yes, I have moments of feeling very relieved. I’m so grateful I’m here and I am doing the things I love, but the journey to get here hasn’t been easy 🗺 . It has been ridden with chronic illness and self-doubt. And yet however hard it is, I feel determined to be a whole person and to thrive 🌺. Having experienced loss recently I know I’m fortunate to have what feels like a second chance at life 🙏. We don’t know how long we have to make the most of it: to love deeply, work profoundly, celebrate fully. Thank you to the amazing people who have shared this (frankly f*cking insane) journey with me so far 😭 ❤️. (And to @roksandailincic for allowing me to wear this masterpiece of a dress on a very memorable evening.) #cancersurvivor #sevenyears #ovariancancer #ovariancancersurvivor #alive #fuckyoucancer #lifelessons #dresstoexpress