On July 22nd my whole life and soul left me on this earth. My nana. My fashion icon. My best friend and soul sister. She was my everything. Everything about life - she taught me. I never thought this day would come. Atleast not this soon. I was not ready for it. Nothing in life will every be the same with her not here. And my heart aches daily as tears come when I think of her. I strive everyday to be like her. All I can do now is keep my head down and put my heart and soul into my work to make her proud. But also to live out her dreams through me. Life after a death is weird and confusing. You realize that all the things that mattered in life - they don’t matter. Then you realize what does really matter. Things etc don’t matter - people matter. Relationships matter. I wish I could go back and change everything, but I can’t. I wish I could go be in heaven with her now, but I can’t. I will forever be devastated in my heart, I will forever cry daily, but I will try my hardest to keep pushing through each day to be the best I can be for her. This has been the hardest time of my life. I keep telling myself one day at a time. Breathe. Do it for Nana. Everything I do is for you. I love you Nana. Now you’re with Papap and I will be with you both soon.