I regret coming out Not because I hate being gay well that’s kind of a lie, being gay does suck. But I moreso hate what happened after I came out. Too many people supported me. Which sounds insane and ignorant, I’m aware. But the truth is, I spent two years haunted by the shadow of my sexuality Believing I’d be hated if I confirmed it And when I was strong enough to accept that hatred, I came out. And I was proven wrong. And I hated myself for it, thinking how dumb I was to keep it “secret” for so long for the sake of my own ego as if everyone didn’t already know. It was like my strength wasn’t necessary. And I hated that. In fact, I basically said a big F* you to myself and the entire internet, and said “I’m not gay anymore.” At least according to my Instagram Because I came out and never talked about it again Or talked about anything again since like May in the name of “not making being gay my personality” But I think it’s about time that I finally talk about everything. Relationships, the gay body standard, regaining trust in men, heck, being a gay Christian, and finding community. Because it’s important to me and my life right now, And I think more than ever, I’m ready to be open about it because over my dead body do I want to keep telling myself that… I regret coming out.