Yesterday my heart was so heavy. I couldn’t believe that last time I was at the beach with my mom I was pregnant ... I never imagined what my year to come would look like. Mommy we are trying everyday to celebrate as I know that’s what you would want for us. But wow. This gets heavier everyday. Every time I crack a smile I shed a tear because the knowing that you’re not here breaks my heart beyond words. But we try and try and try because you taught us to always live life to the fullest. We miss you.