feeling so lucky yet feeling so sad!!! not sure how to explain it but I don’t exactly feel deserving of the good things that happen in my life & it’s hard to feel like I’m really living in these experiences after struggling for so long😭😭 i guess my heart hurts for the younger version of myself that always felt like she was drowning & begging the universe to prove to her it would all be worth it…anyway,,,,🤨🙄🤨🙄🤨