shot for @awake_mode Balance is key. True spirituality has very little to do with the need to always be 'light' and 'positive'. It is about going inwards and confronting your own bullshit and it is also about being honest with your emotions and how you feel, even if it is negative; and it's not an easy or a short journey or fix (no matter what some people or so called gurus tell you). It is a continuous process of self awareness, the breaking of certain patterns, and hard inner work. You also have to become aware of the darkness and negative patterns of behaviour and thinking within yourself (I am still working on that daily myself). There is this idea within certain pseudo spiritual communities or modes of belief that it is bad to show negative emotion, that anger is bad, that the ego is bad (actually you need a healthy ego to function in this reality), etc. Or as soon as you display an emotion that is deemed as negative (which is normal at times, we are human, not robots) then you can be seen in a negative light because for some 'spiritual' people, negative emotions are scary and to be avoided. But that is nonsense, sometimes you need to get angry. Sometimes you need to stand your ground and have clear boundaries. Sometimes you need to express sadness or negative emotions. How else will you be able to process these feelings; to become aware of these emotions within yourself and then be able to work on them if you are constantly repressing them for fear of not always appearing 'positive' and 'light' (which, like I said is heavily promoted by the a lot of fake/inauthentic hippie pseudo spiritual conditioning) or because you've been conditioned to please everyone around you? Everyone has a shadow and a light side, and sometimes people that appear all light and airy fairy can have a lot darkness within, and other times people that appear dark or sombre or that get angry, etc. can have a lot of light and kindness within. You never know. It is good to try and work on our inner shadow and to seek balance between the two polarities within us. Like Carl Jung once said; “People will do anything, no matter how absurd, to avoid facing their own souls.”