🫀💀 Macbeth: 6/24/2019 - 9/22/2022 Once in the midst of the most amazing lsd journey, lost in something beyond space and time I felt wrapped in a cosmic incomprehensible love. As I slowly retuned to the sense of having a body I felt an overwhelming desire to turn that love into a physical object. Something I could hold. An object to both be and receive this boundless care and warmth I felt. At the time I was certain that I could do it. That I could manifest this love into a being. As I finally returned to the knowledge that I was a human lying on a couch i opened my eyes to find an actual dream come true. There was my kitten, Macbeth all of 5 months old and 4 pounds curled up on my chest. I felt like a God. I felt like a child. A god child with a perfect friend. A few weeks ago after weeks of strange chest and arm pain I collapsed and lost consciousness for several hours. I’d never experienced anything like that and it was unsettling to say the least. As I came to almost 6 hours later in a fog of confusion and fear, the first familiar thing to be felt was again, Macbeth curled up on top of me, watching over me. I felt like a cripple. I felt like an old man. A crippled old man with a perfect friend. Today we said goodbye. I tried my best to explain to you what I was going on and why it had to be this way. It broke my heart feeling like I couldn’t make you understand. There’s a hole in my heart that is the shape of you. I think it had always been there and I was so lucky to have you fill it for 3 amazing, short, beautiful, painful years. Goodbye. I love you. I always will. I need a break from here. I’m going to be deleting IG off my phone for awhile. I can’t thank you enough for the messages of love you’ve showered us with. The medical bills from the last few days have been enormous. Several people have asked if they could donate. I don’t expect anyone to but if you want my PayPal is [email protected] and my Venmo is Ryan-Muirhead-1. I also have a print store on my website if you’d like to contribute but get some art in return. In love and death. -r