Exploring all the sides in myself. It’s exciting yet oddly daunting as well. I’m afraid of discovering a person that I haven’t met yet. As I explore fluidity a little more I come to realize that the binary provides me with both comfort and also restriction. Some days I want to be seen, some days I want to not be perceived at all. I judge myself for falling into old thinking habits, though I know all the contradictions can exist within me at once. Loving myself in a society that tells me otherwise feels like a huge task sometimes. Why should it feel this way? Doesn’t everyone want to be loved just the way they are? The dynamics of family, friendships, and dating has changed slowly for me. As I explore this more I’ve realized that even though my pool of visibility and external attraction has grown smaller, it has gotten much deeper as well. The people that take the time to understand truly make me feel seen and supported, and that is so comforting. I do often wonder... is this what it means to be alive? To keep peeling back the layers as I go through different stages of life? Either way, I’m optimistic :) I guess you can say im trying to find my voice again. Anyway, these are just the inner ramblings of my mind. Wishing you reading this a fulfilling week, and to remind you that you’re not alone in your journey❤️🫶🏻