I’ve been finally held ... It’s been many years-long months of war. And it had been nearly impossible to be seen for the continuous soul hole that I walk with every day, while wearing many hats, living normal life, giving my best, showing up for various emotional, physical experiences ...and still not be quite held for these waves of hurt for Ukraine that sometimes swallow my being I’d asked close people to give me hugs. But somehow we always cut it short, before things felt too long , too uncomfortable ;part of me didn’t want to be anyone’s burden too as I wanted to cry but at the same time the need to be held felt so sooo essential for months. It sounds so “superficial”.. a hug? But I’ve been craving a “year-long” present , fully holding comforting touch. Yesterday my emotional body started to hurt again and tears to poured..I turned my face away from people (to not be a burden or disturbance to anyone) A woman , a stranger noticed. I’ve never met her before. She came up to me and asked. “Would you like me to hold you ?” I nodded. We crashed on the wooden floor together she wrapped her arms around my chest; we breathed together, as I whaled the sounds coming from my gut.. and all of a sudden for the first time I didn’t feel alone during such dark moment. For the first time in months I’ve been held. Photos @ellamettler Makeup all @ciatelondon New hair color @jessicalynncolorist Hair cut @mischag Styling @flyingsolonyc Blazer/ shorts : INA KESS @ina_kess Shoes Harry Lou @harrylouofficial Jewelry Made For You @diamondsmadeforyou Bra @adoreme Sparkling necklace: TALITA LONDON @talita_london #held#hug#selfcare#nyfw#newyork#fashion#style