Late last night I had to say goodbye to my most favorite hello. it’s crazy to think that his little legs waltzed into my life when I was a junior in HS. To the dumb asshole who left him in a box at a few weeks old, in front of a car shelter... You missed out on one of the most wonderful blessings of your life. I will never forget the look on my moms face as her 16 year old daughter arrived home at 1am with a furry friend. I will also never forget when she said we had to give him away cuz something was wrong with him. I’ll never forget my triumphant face when I fattened him up with goats milk & baby oats & made him healthy again. Beau wasn’t typical. And for all those who have met him, you guys know EXACTLY what I’m talking about. Beau wasn’t different in the same way all dog owners say. No, beau was literally a freaking spectacle. In the best way. a lot of people have said we were two peas in a pod... right after telling me that he was the weirdest dog they’d ever met. 😂 I don’t disagree. But it has made this so much harder. He is the other half of my heart. I will never be able to understand why this happened, at 9-10 years young. I have had many devastating things happen in my life, but this one... this one is breaking my spirit in shreds. I missed him the moment I had let go. & the hardest part? Leaving him there. Even though he was gone, I couldn’t stand to think of leaving him in another souls care. Beau has always been so scared, it crushed me not to be able to handle the aftermath. I always protected him. And as I sit writing this, with the 6th gallon of tears I’ve cried in the past 24 hours... with a thousand different thoughts. I know I have never been so blessed in my life to be his mom. He’s my baby. When I was in the hospital in HS, I use to have my mom bring me his puppy blankets he slept on, so I could go to sleep & feel the comfort of his scent. I took him to work with me. To school. Everywhere. Life has always been better just because of Beau. I miss you so much already. & I hope he’s safe & happy wherever he is. I bet he’s playing with Lanna right now. I hope to cuddle you again.