i used to share online with consistent transparency but as i’ve gotten older, privacy has become more of value to me. but alas i feel called to share a bit about where i’m at. it’s been half a year since i’ve stopped overindulging in methods of escapism; ive began to truly align with what makes me feel along my cosmic path. the people, the environments, the places, the art, the unfolding and the signs. i’ve been able to admit pain and truths that i’ve experienced in life to myself, that i had denied for a long time; with a mind that’s ready to address and transform that pain. i’m opening up about my feelings in ways i’ve never been able to before. i am eating regularly, i am sleeping regularly and i’m dreaming the most divinely guided, important dreams that nudge me in directions of self reflection and evolution. i have never been more proud of myself than i am now and simultaneously i’ve never really felt more “alone”. not in a depressing way or unsupported way by any means as i am completely surrounded by love, just in a “in a new and unfamiliar space” kinda way. the hardest part has been being at the expense of my emotions with no where to run. it’s overwhelming at times , it’s being fragile a lot, it’s spending a lot of time inside my head. but ultimately it’s overcoming. as time goes on i am becoming more patient with myself and learning to really empathize with my experience which allows me to understand the type of love and experiences that really feed my soul. i am always a work in progress, always rediscovering my footing time and time again. the becoming is the beauty of life. thank you for reading and ty to the people that have held space for me as i have been experiencing this very internal transitional place. i am eternally grateful and just enjoying what it means to blossom. 🌺