Letters to Lennox Finally - timing and a reminder I have thought about this very moment about a hundred times, and each time it begins differently. This intro, I have run through probably a dozen times. If I was trying harder I would describe it as a perfectionist waiting for that perfect moment to begin their writing piece. All this leads to a cliche - Lennox, there is no perfect moment to start and no perfect words to describe you, or this journey. My favorite word is ambiguous. By definition, all things may be ambiguous, except you. You break all the rules of grammar, Lennox Leo Augustus Ramirez, and no definition is perfect for you. It is quite bewildering how no one shares this information, it must be because it is such an intimate feeling that’s hard to express to others without looking crazy. I have told myself a vast amount of times, how can this be possible? How can you be possible? Do you really exist? Silly questions but it’s true. I study you everyday on my hour drive to work and back home. How do you exist? How does it all exist, that stare, laugh, cry. It is all orchestrated to perfection. My thoughts of you have been an endless journey through space. I only thought about loving you so much before I knew you, only to find out I would only love you infinitely more than I ever could. I thought about you before your blueprint, I could only imagine how perfect you would be. Little to find out that word would not suffice in the slightest to describe you to others. As I organize my feelings and thoughts on how to continue my letters to you, I will finish with this. I have feared nothing more than to fail at anything in life, but that is not a way to live. We should not live in fear of failure of what has or has not happened. We should thrive in the face of failure and accept all of its challenges, and if we do fail, we must learn from it. We must learn and analyze why we came across this road and how to better ourselves to avoid the same path later on. Lennox, do not live your life in fear of failing or being a failure, but fantasies about all the ways you can fail and become better and better. - Love, your dad