This video depicts my feelings that day and that sometimes I still cry even when I’m smiling... Sunday made 7 months since I lost my son... Shoutout to @_makaykayy_ aka “my Emma” for the beautiful footage and capturing these moments with me and my son Devon! I love you forever and a day... I usually post something the 17th of every month acknowledging his passing... usually wanting to be alone while drowning myself in my own years... But this Sunday was different... did I cry YES I DID... but I woke up went to church then went to visit Devon’s resting place and finished the day doing one fo his favorite hobbies with a few of his best friends. I LAUGHED more than I cried that day!!! It felt so good to be surrounded my people who made sure I did just that! Smile more than cry! These last few months my village of support has really pulled me through i honestly don’t know if I’d still be here on this earth without them... trying to exist in a world without ur children is an indescribable pain that I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy.... Everyday I say I will wake up and make the choice to be LIVE AND BE HAPPY... although that may NOT be a realistic expectation of MYSELF I’ll aim for that every day that God Blesses me with here on earth... Missing you so much Devon... ***I DO NOT OWN THE RIGHTS TO THIS MUSIC*** #forever21 #dousky #coloroflove #music #musicheals #grief #stoptheviolence #missingyou #motherandson