Hope you’re doing what you want. - This summer has been a lot of pattern observing, surrender and deep change for me. And quite frankly, it’s been MAD work. There’s this underlying pressure that I typically put on myself to be doing one thing at a time — it comes from society, my upbringing + my ego. I’m either HERE and proclaiming it loudly or I’m THERE and planting my flag in the ground for all to see. But this summer, I have been letting myself accept the fullness of my reality. Some days I’m mad stressed but I’m still able to self regulate enough to enjoy an hour outside. I’m simultaneously healing and hurting and twerking. Or reading on the beach and overthinking about my life. As I allow myself to function and move and live in my state of change, I allow myself to accept that these feelings are a part of a full emotional spectrum (and, in turn, human life). Only through feeling them fully, can I accept them, see them as a mirror and try to learn from them as I let them go. I don’t have to tuck myself away in every single growing season. I don’t always have to disconnect as I heal or grieve or process. I can find joy where it is in the now and I can do both at the same time when that feels right for me. Because I’ve given myself this permission, I’ve had a lot of moments of ease, peace and acceptance alongside my moments of inner turbulence and outer change. And that’s fucking beautiful. I hope sharing this is a reminder that life is an enormous experiment and you deserve to enjoy the trials as much as you can while you’re here. And so do I.