I started dieting when I was 14 years old. And sometimes I worry about this baby inside me. If they are a girl, which I don’t know yet but IF they are, then how will I teach her not to make the same mistakes I did. Not to diet away her teen years. Not to fall for all the lies society tells us women: That we must be small. That thin is better. That curves are ok but only in certain places. That wrinkles are shameful And ageing is shameful And loose skin or Sagging knees or Simply sagging is shameful. I got caught in these traps. So I tried slim fast. Then Atkins. South beach. PiIIs. And finally, restricting. Which led to my eating disorder. These days things look different. I know now that sometimes, Our ideal bodies are not our HEALTHY bodies. And if we must STARVE ourselves to have a certain shape, Then that’s not the shape we are meant to have. I know that food is FUEL - both for the body and the soul. And that our PHYSIQUE is the least interesting thing about us. I’ve learned. And while I can’t predict how beany baby shows up, I can vow to myself that we won’t repeat the past. We won’t. Even as I strive to remind YOU That you are worthy. That you deserve food. That you are allowed to eat in a way which nourishes you. Today and every day. No dodgy detox diets required. x #selflove #instavsreality #onlineisntreal