My fourth burn and hands down, by far, the toughest. Everything went wrong, and that’s expected...It’s part of the journey...But dayummmm!! Don’t get me wrong, it was beautiful and it was worth it, but I was constantly uncomfortable, unprepared, worried, angry, and more than anything disappointed in both myself and others. I guess I had high expectations about certain things and it simply wasn’t so. that’s always my downfall: placing expectations and relying on others to meet me where I want, and worse, placing high (often unrealistic) expectations on myself and then judging myself harshly and breaking down when I “fail”. I overextend myself and drain myself until all that’s left is resentment and a tired body. I ended up in the medical tent on day 4 because of dehydration and heat stroke supposedly. It felt more like heart ache and self doubt and giving up, mentally and physically exhausted after shaking and crying all night into the afternoon. My soul and body had reached a breaking point and said “I’m done”. Thank you to my crew for staying up all night and day holding me, force feeding me bananas and an insane amount of electrolytes and love, and covering me with cold wet towels (even though at the time it felt like you were torturing me!) It’s not the first time your love and presence bring me back to life. I love you all so much. This was the year of learning lessons the hard way, at least for me. If you just partied and didn’t learn or hold yourself accountable and change ; FUCK YOUR BURN 📸@donbitv