if you don't feel affected by mental health, someone close to you does. One of my pet peeves is our cultural use of "How are you?" If you know me, you've probably heard me answer this with things like "horrible" "anxious" "so good" "stoked" "exhausted" and much more. Life isn't about making other people feel *comfortable* all the time. Being honest with the people around me about what I'm struggling with has not only saved my life, it has made it so much better. Instagram isn't always the place that I'm opening up about it all, and maybe it seems like I have my shit together and feel happy all the time. But I don't. I've been having a really hard time physically lately. I've had cyclical vomiting over the last year that an ER doc thinks is caused by THC. Everyday is another day managing my panic disorder, and maintaining my behavior and mentality around eating. I'm putting together a ski film after a really personally disappointing season, and I've had to put in active work to let go of my ego and remember that skiing is for fun. People like @owencrandell, my best friend @pringlemiester, and my mom @wendychapmanw have reminded me that there can be joy even on the hard days. People like @lilsara.g, @thisgirlnamedsarah, and @rianzetzer remind me that it's okay to not always be okay and to ask for help when you need it. I hope that you have people like this in your life. If you don't, I hope you can find some. These relationships are life-changing. If you ever feel alone or like everything is too much, please reach out to me. If I can't help, I can help you find help. Xx 🦋 Original photo 📸 by @hikedotski