About to embark on week 4 !!! of Only Gold rehearsals. This is by far the most challenging thing I’ve ever worked on in my LIFE. Making an original musical is no joke people. Making quality, detailed work takes everything you have. I am wearing multiple hats, being a creator, a leader, editing my music, writing new lyric, working on key changes, teaching my own singing style to people, realising how stylistically and percussively I use my voice, learning how to use my tongue in the most efficient way when I sing so I’ll make it through 8 shows a week when we open instead of relying on my little barking seal technique. I’m also working on being a performer, a character in the show and the most challenging of all learning choreography. No big deal, just learning Andy Blankenbuehler moves alongside New York’s finest dancers...(screaming, puking, learning) Then there’s New York itself, screaming in my face, screaming in dogs faces, kicking over bins, constantly pissing shitting and flacid dicking it up. I’m away from my family, my home, my boyfriend, my dogs. I’m learning how to manage all of this as quickly as I can, humbled by my mistakes. Ego to the back, story telling to the front. I really believe in this show, in Andy’s vision and my cast mates. I think we are making something very special and no one said it was gonna be easy. This whole thing just feels very significant, it’s a life changing moment for me, pushing me in new ways, redefining what I am capable of, making me absolutely squirm and forcing me to tone up new skill sets whilst staying true to who I am. I’m so grateful for this experience and show and opportunity to collaborate in this way. Hearing my music like this, watching it be interpreted by others, other people using their gifts to give it new life and new meaning is by far the most exciting moment in my career. I think the next step for me and my goal this week is to own what I’m good at, allow myself to have confidence, use my strengths and to accept any discomfort, breathe through it and know it’s part of learning something new. That’s it for now. Hope you are having a lovely Sunday ☀️