While juggling compassion and patience for my perfect angel, I’m also trying to keep those two things in mind for myself as well. I really want to prioritize reading and journaling in my free time or while I’m breastfeeding. Speaking of, breastfeeding is not for the weak 😂 I am learning the motions with it and making sure he always has enough. I feel like the first two weeks were painful physically, but easy mentally, now being week 3 it’s all hitting me at once and I won’t lie I sometimes have a hard time with it. The hormones coming down, exhaustion catching up with me, and having to really kick in that patience in the middle of the night is very challenging for me to balance at times. But it’s really important not to rush and I’m getting better. 🤍 Some feedings are longer than others, some nights are longer than others but I know and have faith it will get easier and that pattern will kick in soon. It’s already starting to. I also want to say, I admire and stand by every mom who does it alone and every mom who does it with help. Taking care of (and keeping happy) a gentle child who is new to this world, is not easy by any means but it’s the love in the heart that keeps us going. We just wake up and do it. My partner and son are both angels, and I’m so grateful for the happy moments and to have support in the challenging ones. Tired but on cloud 9 🤍☁️🤍 it’s all meant to be. I still can’t believe you were living in my belly for nine months and now you’re here with us. 🥹 Zay, you are our priority. Thank you for making me a mother and teaching me something new about you EVERY DAY. I’m only going to get better and better. 🫶🏼 photography: @reinhardtkenneth dp: @bymatthewfreiheit hmua: @carisadoesitall fashion designer: @dianamputri shot at @12thstreetvoid acc&props: @vilma_star_designs_ lighting director: @kingerald_photo bts&asst: @alexxfowlerr_