I know one day ill look at these and be thankful I was where I am right now, but in this very moment it feels so disorienting. The mix of overwhelm while somehow feeling light again. Terrified but hopeful for the first time in forever. Relief and shame simultaneously. Alone completely while surrounded by the most support I’ve ever had. Disbelief of being somewhere I never expected to be again. I’m determined to find purpose in pain and joy in the journey and all that other BS. Thankful for the best friends who drag me out of my house, in front of the camera and pump me full of espresso martinis. Love u @hello_miss_lovely @_spencerhk Special shout out to my natural skin tone 😂 (and by natural i mean recently blasted by @30aaestheticpa and therefore perfect)