I’m not bitter I wasn’t the first person to hold my baby I’m not bitter I have never laboured I’m not bitter my waters have never broken naturally I’m not bitter I didn’t have a big baby bump I’m not bitter I didn’t have a baby shower I’m not bitter I didn’t carry my baby to term I’m angry I have been spun a narrative from a young age That the female body is designed to grow and carry a baby How strong a woman is for the way her body carries a child I’m angry I felt alone on a busy maternity ward I’m angry I felt alone buying my baby’s first pack of nappies I’m angry the mood changes should I ever mention our journey to motherhood in a new mums group I’m angry they missed this part out of the movies I’m angry no one told me things could be this way I’m angry no one told me my body didn’t fail I’m angry you never told me. #nicu #nicunurse #nicumom #nicumama #nicumum #prematurebaby #preemiestrong #preemiebaby #preemiemama #preemiemom #preemiemum