TW ⚠️ You’ll sleep side by side And I’ll hold you, one in each hand Your matching coming home outfits, hanging side by side Two car seats, two cots and a double pram - ready and waiting Pause Somethings wrong, I don't feel as if I can keep you safe much longer I saw the fear in the her eyes as she inserted the epidural into my back The midwife grabbed my hand and held it far too tight Where’s daddy, he will be here soon - this wasn’t how they said it would be As I laid back, I saw Daddy's face and I couldn’t keep it together any longer Twin one is here - a deafening silence among the hum of machines Whisked away before I got a glance Twin two... where are you - I need to see you, I need to hear you I saw it on Instagram, golden hour I’m laying here alone, I’ve never seen this before Your NICU journey has started and mummy will be there soon Separate incubators and intensive care rooms Your journeys were so different And you came home weeks apart Pause But not all twins leave the NICU. Dear Oscar @mellowtwins2019 You were one half of twins but you were not half a person An entire person, a whole human and a complete lifetime And your surviving twin is not a consolation, they are also an entire person Mummy goes to sleep every night wishing she could hold you Forever grateful for your sister but an instant reminder of what they have lost Abbey whispered, I would revisit the NICU 100 times over - if it meant I could bring you home, Oscar 💙 Twins Trust have a Neonatal guide available on their website, along with a Bereavement Support Group for anyone to access when needed. Read more of Abbey’s story here: @mellowtwins2019 #nicuawarenessmonth #nicu #babyloss #nicumom #nicumum #nicubaby #nicunurse #twins #twinsofinstagram #mumsofinstagram #momsofinstagram #preemie #prematurebirth #prematurebaby