This feels right 🥹 thankful for it all. For the past year I’ve been focusing getting reacquainted with myself, getting down to the nitty gritty, asking myself what my values are in life. During/post covid, along with many social movements that happened (and are still happening) I questioned my own voice and my validity of it all. I didn’t want to add into the noise, it felt unnecessary and it felt sometimes unsafe. In this age of social media, where trends ripen and fall so quickly, I didn’t want to add to the pile of what I felt like individual decay. You are not a trend! And especially not your body nor your weight. My inability to show up has always been tied to perfectionism. Perfectionism tells you that if you behave and act nice, with no flaws, then no one can have an opinion about you. It’s a false shield that never lets you be seen in the world. So I stayed small, quiet, and meek. In this year I’ve stumbled, cried, traveled alone, challenged myself socially, mentally and physically. I’ve enjoyed warm meals, loving embraces, and good rest too. And all of that away from a camera. With short form content, we are fed so many ideals so quick, more so than ever. Ideal relationships, perfect meals, weddings, lavish vacations. And we scroll, and again and again we search for the next best thing. What you don’t see is all the foundation, work that is put into it. Things take time. I had to take a step back, and realize that sometimes not every moment needed to be shared. Sometimes, it’s just for me. Be kind to yourself, forgive yourself. Slow down. You are not behind! Life takes time and you’re still here. ❤️ Love always Ivan