I’m happy for you. I’m just sad it wasn’t me. Nothing will compare to that beautiful moment when your little one enters the world A feeling of joy, relief, love and wonder, all at once That skin-to-skin, closeness, newborn cuddle, first hello and chubby little face The triumph You did it mama, you’re a rockstar! I’m proud of you, I’m just disappointed it wasn’t me. The natural instincts are kicking in, I want to stay home and prepare my baby’s new environment I want to feel safe and cosy Lay on the sofa and immerse myself in the rhythm of your kicks But something changed later that evening It feels strange and I’m scared - it’s cold and I feel like I’m losing myself I’m pumped for you, I’m just feeling like I don’t belong here. If my body didn’t fail then why didn’t they clap for me If my body didn’t fail then why had I never read about my birth story If my body didn’t fail then why didn’t my first moments and photos make the baby blogs If my body didn’t fail then why was I desperately searching for validation as a new mum If my body didn’t fail then why is this area of pregnancy hidden away. I’m happy for you - I really am I’m just trying to understand why my body didn’t do ‘what our bodies were designed to do’. You didn’t fail - they just failed to show you anything outside of the pregnancy textbook 🤍 #nicuawarenessmonth #nicu #nicumom #nicumum #nicumama #nicubaby #nicunurse #premature #prematurebaby #birth #pregnant #pregnancy #newmum #mumsofinstagram #momsofinstagram #mumlife #momlife